UGH!

So today I had a doctor appointment with my Gynecologist.
what I thought was going to be a normal, yearly check up ended up with me having to make an appointment for a mammogram. Nothing new, being 40 now I have to go yearly anyway, however I should hae gone in April so I was a bit over due, BUT being I was a bit pre occupied with melanoma in April and then spent the next 10 weeks+ dealing with multiple appointments and culminating with surgery going for a mammogram kind of gotta put on the back burner. Now I am wishing I had gone when I was suppose to. My doctor found a suspicious , dense, mass. Bummer is, as well as feeling that, I also had high blood pressure ( well duh, you just tell me you feel something that should not be there then take my blood pressure?) but I have no insurance. The boys have been our priority and they have coverage through the Michigan Mi Child program but me, nada.....when I got home and called the comprehensive breast cancer center, where I have gone since begining to have these exams and I found out is is going to cost me $150 for the film version of a mammogram or $275 for a digital version, well that is a no brainer right, then another $140.00 for an ultra sound on my left breast. The doctor wants me to have a bilateral with a diagnostic for the mammogram and the left breast ultra sound. The health center proceeded to tell me I need to pay in full on the day of the mammogram, 3 weeks before Christmas - right- have no idea how we are going to do this one! So far the only thing I am sure of " I hate being 40! I have been so healthy my whole life, only time I have ever been in the hospital except for melanoma was to have my 4 babies. On a good note- had my 6 month check up with the dermatologist last week and they did not find anything new. God sure does have a sense of humor huh? My mammogram is currently schedualed for next thursday at 10:15am then a return to the gynecologist on January 8.